who are we

Are we the songs we listen to
Or the books we read
The movies we see
Or the people we talk to
the cars we drive
Or the jobs we work
With so many external forces
do we really find ourselves on this self searching journey?
Or just lose ourselves even more

so much..

Have you ever felt so strongly about so many things at once that you think you could write a book just to cover one topic? And then.. when you try to speak about them .. nothing comes out? It feels like you have nothing on your mind instead of having more than just about everything. You try to focus, get on one subject so it seems like you know what you’re talking about, and you try so hard to get it together, to shout out to people what you think they should know. what is too important to be kept inside. How can we pick? Global warming, poverty, rape, murder, psychopaths, war, genocide, religion; how to choose? We try to say what has never been thought..but do we try to think about what has already been said?

purpose

Is it really worth it? Feeling all that anger, jealousy, hurt, doubt. Worrying about all the little things? What will they think of me? what should I wear? Why can’t I be as pretty as her, why can’t I have that guy? Is all that really our purpose in life? What do we get in the end? We all end up under this earth at one point. All the wealth we’ve earned, the friends we have.. none of that is with us. Making a mountain out of sand..is it really worth it? Letting the essence of this world reach within us..being able to feel the satisfaction of personal success and completion. That’s what this life is really about. That’s what we’re meant to be doing in this small part of our existence. One human can’t control or change everything. But if a hundred..a thousand..a million people at once can work together ..anything is achievable. If we can all aim towards a main goal..a moral cause..anything is possible.

..

So many thoughts…and no words
So many steps…and no distance
How far do we get
By putting up the net?
How high do we go
By not letting someone know?

-awakening-

Waking up to the brightness and warmth of the sun
After long stormy years
Having gained strength and wisdom
Is an awakening anyone will welcome
Knowing that this joy won’t last
But always having the weapon to fight
Walking at your own pace
But remembering to fill the needs around you
Accepting all that is
But changing what might be
New storms will pass
But the memory of the sun
will always help to keep going
knowing that with enough strength
the light will soon shine again

how much

How much can one take
Glass to the brim
Think it’s gna spill
but it’s still there..dripping
Changes all around
You think you got enough scars to last a lifetime
But no. there has to be more
There’s always room for more
How much can one take
And when new wounds aren't formed
the old, half healed ones get ripped open again
How much can one take
No one to comfort. No one to guide.
Road’s never been so deserted
How much can one take
Try to satisfy
by not letting them know
Greater good they call it
But where do I go
Stabbed over and over
Just when you think you’re on the way to freedom, even if it’s a while away
There comes the knife again
Gotta start all over
Does another start even exist?
This is all one can take
Bout to spill over the brim
This glass is gna break

keep me sane

Go with the flow
Doesn’t have meaning any more
Try and try to no avail
No organization to the fiery thoughts that contain seemingly endless energy
No solutions
Grateful but wishing
Sense danger in hope
Lights from every candle extinguished
Even the wick is nonexistent
Disappointment emits from every direction, satisfaction coming to none
This expression not meant to be a classic
Only to get out enough to keep me sane
Maybe then.. Sleep can come again